You are so strong to get infront of a camera and express your feelings like this. Like you said everything happens for a reason and i 100% agree but i wish only but the best for you and steven the best ❤️

You are so brave to share your story Desi. I admire your strength. Often they say “it will happen when you least expect it” 🙏🏻 hoping it will be the case for you too. There is also some kind of water hole/lake in Australia that is a spiritual place and symbolises fertility, maybe something you might be interested in, some people have said it has worked for them, you never know it could be interesting to try - her about Nicole Kidman trying it? Thinking of you and Steven and wishing you all the best in the future. 😘❤️

This video truly helps

Sending love and prayers your way ♡

You sweet thing. Big Hugs and well wishes from me to you ❤️❤️❤️

Desi!!! I love you guys sooo much!!! I'm sorry for all of the pain you guys have been experiencing...my Mom struggled for 6 years to get pregnant with me.. She said it was the longest, hardest 6 years of her life..Just know that we are all here for you and are supporting you and Steven in every way possible!! Xoxoxo

so much love for you desi!

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Hello! First of all, I must say that you are amazing and I love your videos soooooo much. Second please try tee from lady’s mantle. It help me and so many women I know. Send you lots of love,hope and good wishes.

Hi Desi, i don't even know you, i'm a new subscriber..but watching this video has made me feel this deep sympathy for you, i'm praying for you and i believe and i'm sure you will conceive because we are serving a living God, i pray this in Jesus name amen. Lots of hugs

You are still so young and you are in good hands now. Your specialist will figure out your period and ovulation problems if you have any, so that's not the problem. Then there is multiple ways to help the pregnancy to begin and to support it. I hope you don't stress too much and hopefully you have the energy to stay positive ❤ You will be pregnant again and you will have a child and family one day ❤.

Thank you for addressing fan comments in the beginning. I hope some people read this and realize they are unknowingly touching on a sensitive subject or pushing their own family dreams on their idols. Love xoxo

Desi- I had the same struggles getting pregnant. After years of struggle the specialist helped us and now have 3 healthy beautiful boys! They are super spaced apart! keep your faith and don’t give in to all negative self talk we all do when we go through this. Much 💗

My best friend has just fallen pregnant after being diagnosed with PCOS over 3 years ago and had been trying for a baby for 2 years with no luck except an early miscarriage. She wasn’t trying and it always happens when you least expect. Never give up hope ❤️

Keep the faith honey, believe with every ounce of yourself and I promise it will happen. I am so glad you shared your heart with us and of course now you have thousands and thousands of people praying for you. Positive thoughts, always- You will be a Momma! 🙏❤️❤️🙏

I cried like a baby watching this video because for years that was me trying and trying and i just couldnt get pregnant so i was terrified I thought i never would but you know what your right everything happens when for a reason and god knows when to give you what for so long you have wanted i did have the ovulation problem and my dr gave me the pills and i took them and took them and he had told me 6 months and when i took my last month and didnt see anything i just said i give up and decided to just forget about it it happened i was pregnant and it was the most amazing feeling in the world i love you so much and dont worry god know when the time is right

I proclaim, in Jesus's name, a blessing for you and your family!!

Desi, we are here to support and uplift you. We understand how hard this could be. My grandma had 7 miscarriages, but she never stopped trying. She ended up having 2 beautiful children. DO NOT GIVE UP. I hope this inspires you. :)

Bless your soul Desi & always have faith. May God be with you & Steven & bless you with a gorgeous family one day 💕

I'm here balling my eyes out. Im so sorry for what you and Steven are going through. I pray that God will give you peace and continue to bless you with greatness and blesses you guys with a wonderful family!! XOXOXO

My respect goes out to you in a way you couldn’t even imagine I started following not so long ago and I found out about your miscarriage and I felt it for you but trust me everything happens for a reason, as painful as it was God had plans for you at the moment and he’s got a blessing so big coming your way that you don’t even imagine, just trust the process, the Universe and that beautiful entity and power of love above all that’s God that you guys will have a family soon, you’re already on the right track which is Law of Attraction thinking about having a family so with that been said just love, trust, believe and have faith you guys are going to be the best parents...

Sending my love and prayers to you!

Don’t comment that frequently but I just wanted to say I’m so proud of you for opening up to all of us!! Stay strong! God has a plan for you and Steven! And I know this video touched so many lives!

I commend you on how raw this video is. I had never seen any of your content before or know anything about you but you have shown yourself to be really genuine down to earth woman who I'm sure has helped so many women with this video. x

Blessings 🙏🏾❤️. I hope everything gets better ❤️✨

Todo a su tiempo amor 💕

My husband and I have been trying for over a year and I appreciate your honesty. I needed this video more than you know.

Desi, sending you so much love and light. My mother struggled with pregnancy as well but years down the road she got me and my sister. I'm praying the same for you!

Fertility treatment is the best decision we ever made. Truly best of luck. There are so many people going through the same thing, and it is brave you made your story public.

u guys are going to be amazing parents im so sry desi

Desi most people have a miscarriage on the first child but look my mom has 6 children I will and we all will be by your side love u

Oooouuu Desii ...you touched my heart deeply . I cried so hard for you , cuz i went through this aswell. I will pray for you and please trust God cuz he has the perfecr timing for you guys .i got pregnant that month i gived up , and didnt want to hear the word baby anymore . It will happen and never give up . Love u .

who else cried watching this! desi you are so brave posting this! you are such a strong person!

I don't know where you stand with your faith but I saw the bracelet of la Virgencita de Guadalupe you posted a few days ago that you got... I know she's working her magic with God for you and your husband. Please don't have a doubt. Their timing is always right even if you don't get it right now. My favorite bible verse is John 13:7 and I feel like it applies to so many situations we go through in life. No pierdas tu fe Desi, ni la Esperanza. Prayers and lots of warmth for you and your hubby!

❤️ it WILL happen!

Desi, I know how you feel when you say “it’s embarrassing “ I used to feel like that but then became very open about. I’m hoping this will help you ❤️ You are still very young, I will be praying for you.

I really feel for you and you are very brave to share this. Just some thoughts: *i really don’t like this « meant to be philosophy » because I think it implies that somehow you are at fault. You are not. It sucks but you are not to blame. * I am sure you have thought about this a lot and have made a decision already but I am adopted and I had wonderful parents whom I love very much. I know my birth parents too. It’s all good. Thinking of you and wishing you all the best xxxx

My husband and I have been trying for years. We’ve spent money on fertility drugs, fertility specialists, ultra sounds, lab work with no luck. It’s hard to pretend to “not be trying”. You’re right, it feels embarrassing dealing with infertility and it feels even worse trying to explain it to someone who asks when you will have a baby. I’m 34 and my husband is 39 and we still have hope that we will be blessed with a child. Hang in there mama. It will happen for us! 🤗

sleep well, go out, enjoy your freedom because the minute you went to the doctor i am sure it is going to happen.....believe me......i ve been there,two of my friends too.....the only thing you must scare is the posibility of triples.....!!!(sorry for my english i m greek)

wow so unfair...you guys are so amazing

Ooo baby, my heart is hurting for you. It is hard to see you in so much pain. Sending you strength and love..

out of tragedy comes something good . thank you for sharing i am sure your good deed will get you in place where you will be so much happier soon. ox

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def sucks to be 32 and never been pregnant and everyone around you asks all the time it just makes the fear really real bc I'm not even sure if I could get pregnant bc of health issues while I was young. I've always wanted to adopt but I always pictured myself having a biological child at least one even though I want more. but I wish you the best of luck with all of this, be strong and God will bless you with whatever belongs to you in this life! just stay positive bc that affects everything else 💖💚

Desi this was beautiful. You will have a baby, Mark 11:24. Please remain positive and trust that God will make a way 🙏🏽✨

Hi Desi, I loved this video so much not because I can relate to your situation but because I know a God of miracles and is all about Gods perfect timing, he is never early, and he is never late. I just wanted to share this link with you because I feel like it’s going to touch you and help you a lot to understand 💖😊🙏🏼 https://youtu.be/IvAsbxypIl0

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I’m so sorry Desi!! God is able! My head really goes out to you. Don’t stop believing. Okay!

Crying! I really hope you get pregnant soon i can't wait to see your happy face!! You will be the greatest mom ever!

Hi Desi, I just wanted to tell you how strong it is to make a video like this. I wish you a lot of strength and I just send you a lot of positivity from Spain. Lots of hugs xxx

Desi, I AM SURE that everything's going to be ok!!!! I KNOW that. It's gonna happen :* :* :* I'm with you and I'll pray for you

I randomly chose to watch this video and I feel obligated to comment. I am so sorry for your loss and for what you have been going through the last few years. I know how heartbreaking it is to want a baby and have issues. I know what is like to have family and friends and strangers ask when you are going to get pregnant. My husband and I tried for two years without any results. I talked myself into the hope of being pregnant and took more pregnancy tests than I can count. Feeling inadequate and like I wasn’t capable of doing the main thing a women can do; killed me inside. A family member got pregnant with her second child and “rubbed it in” every chance that she could. It was heartbreaking and soul crushing and I am so sorry that you are going through those same feelings. We finally went to the dr. to see what was going on. My husband was checked and he was fine which further led to my feelings of inadequacy knowing that I was the problem. I finally found out that I had pcos and wasn’t ovulating. I was given medication to regulate my period as well as medication to help me ovulate. I won’t lie, the metformin was incredibly hard on my stomach but it did get me pregnant. I now have a beautiful 2 year old daughter but I still 100% can empathize with your feelings/pain. I hope you find that some medication is all that you need to assist in the process and I hope that you also end up with a beautiful, healthy baby. Even though I don’t know you, we are sisters in a way and I will keep you in my thoughts. Good luck to you and your husband. I wish nothing but happiness for you both going forward.

omg!! u cannot watch this video w out shedding sum tears.. ur hubby's reaction 2 the prego news just broke my heart.. so happy.. I'm so sorry

Hi I just wanted to say from someone who tried for 4 years and I was at the point where I was sad and depressed because I though I could not have babies BUT by the grace of God I was pregnant with my first baby boy who is 2 now. And I have a 6 month old now and I found out about him when my first was 1 and a half. My only explanation could be god wanted me to wait because had I not had to wait I wouldn't have my sweet Easton I would have some other kid. Please keep trying and don't give up.

I hope this is helpful but they have ovulation tests at the store. They could maybe alert you to the best time to really focus on. I really pray that everything you want happens for you.

Stay strong baby girl! You are the strongest💕 you got this! Have faith in you 🙏🏼 prayers always.

Who thumbs down this? Like do you not have a soul?

Thank you for making this. For being raw. My husband and I had 3 miscarriages before finally having our sweet daughter. Now, 5 years later, we have had 4 more miscarriages and we are in the clear to try again. This will be our second cycle TTC and I'm positive we will have another baby, but fearful as well. The doctor has mapped out a plan, and we know why I was losing the babies now. I'm just scared. After so much loss, fear really gets it's claws in deep. Fear of losing another baby. Fear of not being able to get pregnant again. It isn't easy for everyone, and nobody really talks about how hard it really is. ❤ so much love to you and I hope your rainbow baby comes soon.

You'll be in my thoughts. Thank you for sharing your story. You're so brave and you are not alone.

My heart is with you Desi ❤️ You’re a very strong and brave woman to share such a personal story. I pray for you and Steve, I pray God guides you both through this tough journey. Don’t give up, everything happens for a reason. Love you so much ❤️

I being in a relationship for 10 yrs going on 11 in September n I also have a problem getting pregnant I’m going on 5 years trying to get pregnant gone thru depressing twice cause your so hopeful for that pregnancy test to read yes have faith I know I do n I know you’re soon gonna announce you’re pregnant I’m praying for you and for baby Perkins to be here soon sending lots of love 😘😘

who the hell unliked it??

Thank you for being so vulnerable and telling your story in more depth. I sent this to my sister as she is going through a similar situation. She said she will watch it after she finishes work. Desi i love you and have so much respect for you. Thank you for allowing me to understand how my sister is feeling as well. Its educating others around the person too on how to just be more sensitive and understanding

hi desi that's exactly how I felt right now

This breaks my freaking heart! I’ve always been a firm believer that everything happens for a reason. & I think that you were given this gift & purpose to be able to share your story with others. Please don’t give up. I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart.

I’m 30, and I’ve been with my husband for 15years and married 6 years, and I have sickle cell and I’ve wanted kids forever! And I used to dream about being pregnant, baby showers, nursery’s! And every time my period would be late I’d think I was pregnant and I’d take a test and of coarse it would come out negative and I’d be hurt! My older sister has 2 boys! And then my younger sister got pregnant and didn’t want to tell me because I was supposed to be next! And she had two kids! So I felt left out! When my friends were having babies I’d be so mad that it wasn’t me! I’ve always wanted to be a mom! But in 2010 we lost our dad to brain cancer.. so my mom was raising our brother by herself and my brother has Down syndrome! And then in 2016 we lost our mom to liver cancer, and my brother a left with no parents and so me and my husband have him now! He is 15 but mentally 4/5! And ever since my brother was born me and my husband have been so close to him like he was our own! So after 15years I believe god planned on us having my brother to take care of! But it still hurts me that I haven’t been pregnant! I know how you feel! But god has a plan for you I promise

Wow. I didnt even know this video was regarding this when I clicked on it. I dont comment ever but I just miscarried at 21 weeks about 2 mos ago. I AM LITERALLY CRYING watching this. I feel so much more connected to your journey now. I love you and know your pain. I know the joy AND the pain that is breathtaking and heartbreaking. We had a huge gender reveal party and everything. I will be praying for you always.

I know a family with more than 6 misscariages,struggling with a child's death and waiting for 9 years for a child to come ....but they did it and now they have an amazing 18 years old daughter ,my best friend !!! I hope the best for you and your family ...and yeah you ARE a FAMILYYY ...it takes 2 or more people to be a family and you have steven so you should not feel embarrashed or anything ...that is a true blessing and god has more for you two to enjoy !!! I send allll my positive thinking to you guys....looooove u!

So basically people pressure her to have babies and she can’t. There I saved you a lot of time. Ok this is sad but seems at the same time clickbait and trying to profit off a sad situation. Why can’t some things remain private? It’s her choice to put it out there, but in my opinion I don’t agree.

❤ you desi ... your an amazing person , your such a beautiful soul , thank you for sharing your personal experiences it does help people who have had hard times too , so bless your heart , xx

I’m going through this at the moment with my fiancé and it does break my heart because I thought deep in my heart I was pregnant .. I sometimes feel like something is wrong with me because my fiancés friends keep asking when we’re going to have a baby etc but honey lets have faith and try to be at our healthiest so we can have the healthiest baby, God knows when .. I am in this journey with you Desi 💛

God is with you as a mighty terrible one and he will come to your aid. My mum suffered miscarriages like everyday! But now she has four children. Even after having us she still has miscarriages. But she's doing fine and God has been so merciful with us. We do nothing special to deserve that, God loves every one equally he is not a man! Have faith be strong don't let careless comments weigh you down. You are loved!! By God and also by mee😍🤗. Be strong💪🏾!! It'll all be worth it someday!!

I send you a lot of love

Love you so much Desi. I cried with you and empathize. Wish I could give you a heartfelt hug. You and your husband are such incredible people. Please keep shining.

You are loved God has a plan❤️

This video made my teared up over & over again especially seeing the video clips you had filmed from before. I wish I can give you a hug & cry with you. Thank you for sharing this video with us Desi, I've been watching your videos for a while now but this one really hit me hard. It takes a lot of courage to open up & talk about this sensitive subject publicly when you're usually portrayed as a fun/happy/glamorous person on social media so I appreciate how real you got in this video. This video will definitely help uplift others who are going through a similar situation as you & Steven. I am hopeful for you both & both of you will make amazing parents whether you will have biological children or choose for adoption because the pre-parental love you both already have now will only multiply when that timing comes. I agree that pregnancy comments are very disrespectful & inconsiderate, not only the ones published online but it's also not cool to ask in-person too. I'm sorry you've been feeling depressed & alone but we are all here for you & we love you! Thank you for choosing to share your personal life with us & making us all feel relatable. Never lose your gleam of hope because the best things are saved for last.

You are brave for talking about this. Thank you for sharing. Im sure there is someone out there who is greatful u made this video becaue she feels the same. May God bless you and see yoy through this

This melts my heart, you are so strong & so beautiful

Desi you are an angel. You are in my prayers. God is good and has a great plan for you. Don’t ever stop believing. Praying for you now, and I will continue to pray for your future family! I can’t wait for the day when you come on here and announce you are pregnant. The whole world will be rejoicing with you. We love you Desi!❤️

It’s going to be okay ! From the bottom of my heart .. May God bless you ! 🙏🏼

The clip of Steven was great

Watching this was so emotional... you are such a beautiful soul desi... wishing you and the hubs nothing but the best, sending so much love your way ♥️♥️♥️

Thank you for sharing your story. Such a brave thing to do. ❤️

You’re so brave ❤️

It will come when you least expect it 💖 wishing you all the best

This is my biggest fear. I’m so scared of this and I just balled my eyes out for you. I can only imagine how you feel.. but I know you’ll have a baby and I will pray for you! Maybe it’s because you have so much going on right now and God is waiting because you’re enjoying this part of your life right now. Love you Desi, so much! ♥️

Do you realize how many people will be praying for you after this video? I made a sincere prayer for you, trust me God is so magical and when strangers make prayers for you it's stronger. If you read this please make prayer for her.

God bless you both😘... God will send you a little angel when you least expect it. 😊 You had me crying the whole time because I went through the same thing. Having a miscarriage is so hard for a woman. I will never forget 😔 I’m scared to try again... I strongly agree that everything happens for a reason, so whenever god wants to plant that little peanut inside me, I will happily accept 😁. Stay strong and professional help is the best thing you can do... Advice: Just make sure your cervix isn’t tilted and if it is, get it massaged back in place.

You are so strong. So brave. So kind for making this video. People need to understand that this is a very sensitive and personal thing. Have faith. I know someone very close who just had a serious surgery and there are no chances of her ever having her children. So u not ovulating is really a small problem and thank God there is an easy fix. Also, in my humble opinion, after this very personal video I wouldnt share anything related to your family on social media especially with a following like yours. We believe in the evil eye. We believe that you should nvr fully share ur happiness with the world to protect what it is u r happy about. Just be happy with ur loved ones, share with your loves ones, give charity, and pray to God that when its is time, may he Bless you and your family with a healthy and long living baby that will always be the delight of your eyes. Ameen.

You are a remarkable woman. Your strength is inspiring. So grateful that you’ve chosen to share this with us. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

Try prenatals, taking them for about 6 months and continue to be proactive to get your levels up. You are going to get what you desire. Believe sweetie.

Desi. You are one amazing woman. I love you so much! You touched my heart more than words can express. Please, NEVER give up, nor feel embarrassed. God will NEVER put you through something you cannot conquer. You and Steven are in my prayers. May your beautiful home and daily life and attitude be blessed with lots of love, hope, faith and gratitude. You are amazing. Wow I am stunned by how beautiful your heart is. You are definitely being watched over by beautiful angels and of course our Lord. I knew I loved you as a person for more than just the regular daily content you posted. Thank you so much for sharing your story❤️

💕💕💕 so proud of you for being brave and sharing this. So many people are struggling with the same thing and need to hear other women talk about it. Maybe you are going through all this for a time, just so that you can reach out to others. God has a beautiful plan for your life, I mean already you’ve been given such an incredible platform, and I truly believe that one day this will just be a small part of that amazing story. 💕 keep the faith sister. You’ll be in my prayers.

Also I love the song “take courage” by Bethel. It says “take courage my heart. Stay steadfast my soul. He’s in the waiting. ...and You who hold the stars, and call them each by name, will surely keep Your promise to me, that I will rise in Your victory.” 6The Lord protects the simple-hearted when I was brought low, he saved me. 5Gracious is the Lord, and righteous; our God is merciful. 7Return, O my soul, to your rest; for the Lord has dealt bountifully with you. 8For you have delivered my soul from death, my eyes from tears, 💕 my feet from stumbling; 9I will walk before the Lord in the land of the living.” -Psalm 116

So much love and light to you. I always look at your videos and pics with your husband, and of your house and think I would do anything to be that happy, but this shows you are human too. Thank you for your strength and sharing your story. It has also opened my eyes up. I was a mom at the age of 19, and now a single mom to a 6 year old boy living with severe autism. This journey of raising him has been the most challenging and some days I don’t know if I’m strong enough to continue. This is my struggle, but this video has made me hug him tight and be thankful for his life even if it’s not the life I imagined for himself or for me. I am still thankful for him. I will pray for you and your husband. You are incredible ! ❤️

I am in my IVF treatment number 3, believe me it is hard to tried and tried and not getting pregnant.

My mom already had 3 children before she had me. She was 34, and trying not to get pregnant as she was getting older. But boom, she got pregnant with me! My dad named me Lucky 'cause he said I was a lucky baby. I got pregnant last year without expecting it, and now I have 1 year old boy! Also, I have a friend who tried for 8 years, and just 2yrs ago, she had her daughter. Don't give up Desi! You will be a mom someday. ❤

I’ve gone thru this and haven’t had children either. But there are reproductive counselors who can help you thru this I used to work for obgyn for 8 years and we had one. I think this will help you heal so you can move on and have children.

Desi you are truly my role model and I look up to you so much! You’re one of the strongest people i know and i love you so much ❤️

Desi, You said that it took you years to see a specialist. let me tell you I live in China for 10 years and when i woman is ready to have children the first thing a woman does here is go to see a specialist to put them on a diet for a whole year before they even try to get pregnant and to check themselves completely to see their nutrients etc. if they don't have access to a doctor believe me their elders know how to eat to have healthy children so they will just take advise from their parents. Their diet is usually really high in fats, lots of eggs a day , fish soups and all kind of animal soups and believe me their stadistics for autism are very low and they seem to be very fertile. after leaving here so many years i adopt their ways and i have a second healthy child. for my third i am getting ready meaning i will go see the doctor to do a complete check up. Desi you represent so many women in america that are going through the same, please be a voice inform about how much a healthy life style will impact their offspring. BTW I m not fat despite a eat very high in fat hahaha i am as skinny as you are with 2 children on my back so dont be afraid about gaining weight. Research WESTON A PRICE on traditional diets around the world. Read his book Nutrition and Physical degeneration you won't regret!!!! He who has ears, let him hear. - Carla

Oh honey, had no idea you and Steven or mostly you were struggling with this problem! 😭I’m praying for you and hoping for the best!! 🙏🏼I can see why this is so hard for you! 😘😘You made me so venerable though this video, and you should know I cried with you through the entire video. ❤️AND honestly I’m ready to hug you right though the phone, because I feel like you need a good old big hug❤️ XX